There’s nothing poetic about tearing yourself open to let tsunamis of pain spill out and stain your sheets red, all because there’s battles in your head you can no longer fight and a blade to your skin is the only armour you can find.
There’s nothing romantic about being so depressed that showering is a chore and that you’re so convinced that the world would be better off without you that you have no energy to even try anymore.
There’s nothing beautiful about substituting relationships and happiness for a skeleton that sits upon your skin because you want to be the kind of perfect that would make someone fall in love with you in a world where you’re completely alone.
There’s nothing cute about being unable to leave the house or be in groups or fall in love without firecrackers igniting in your chest and drowning in an invisible ocean while everyone else is staying afloat